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September 07, 2010
3:48
sending some positive energy my way.
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I could sit here
And point fingers at all the things I have failed to accomplish
I could wallow away
In the areas of myself that
Make me feel less than I really am...

But what good will the bring,
Except tears of sorrow?

No...
I am beautiful,
I am wonderfully made,
I am a sea of unimaginable possibility
There is nothing I can't do
If I set my mind to it!

All these so called "flaws"
Will only add... uniqueness to what I do,
And I am fine with that too!

Today
I profess that
I will not chain myself
In the 3D wall of illusions!

"I resolved not to become my own jailer"

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September 06, 2010
5:51
Fire fly... ...
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I will dance and dance and dance! until my feet break right off my body! I will dance thru this storm until i lose all the fat on my bones.

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September 04, 2010
17:10
where is the balance???
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I want to be happyWhatever that even means.I want to affect my world positively,To be able to run through the fieldsOf my so-called "troubles"And accept that I am not perfect.That everything is going to be alright!Which it is.
I want to be able to look at this turmoil,And laugh at it,Endlessly, as I make teaand Shepherd's pie!
I want to stand up out of this muddy messAnd walk away into my own glory,To embrace the strength I already possess inside.To stop comparing my beingTo things that are not meWill never be me.
I want to understandThat not all things will remain the same,That giving and receiving is a mutual thin Read Full Post

2:11
Shifting and sieving.
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It seems like there's always going to be something wrong.

Shoes don't fit right,You don't act right,Energy don't flow right.sucking in more and more.Giving nothing back.Even when all you want is the opposite.Some times what's wrong is all you are reminded of.
So, as you look at yourself,Take in who you are in your completeness,With no judgement.Everyone else is pointing fingers,But keep your criticisms of yourself at a low!
One day,These things that appear to be "wrong"Will be the very ones helping you to find what is trulyRightAnd complete Read Full Post

August 31, 2010

4:33
Abstract Abstractness
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It's that unlocked door,
For which key are searching.
That open book,
For whose writing we long to read!

It's that sun streaking through the window,That obvious pimple,Below your dimple.That undone piece of cloth,That peace of mind...Of serenity...That we haveBut some how forgot we did.

It's that unmistakable silence,
When a lady of grandeur walks into the room,
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August 28, 2010

20:22
Didn't cha Know... EBadu
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Loving it! Read Full Post

August 26, 2010

4:40
Along the way.
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Along the way:
We may get lost some times.
We may eat a few stones,
Confuse them for chicken bones.
Hit a few rocks,
Hit rock bottom...
Sit flat on our bottoms.

Along the way:
We may see dreams fulfilled,
Nightmares manifested,
Memories resurface,
Revealing the truth beneath
These skins of speed,
Of immovability,
Of death.

Along the way,
We may seek the need,
To stick with the what we know already.
Fail to understand
That we must evolve
And allow things to revolve,
And try not to solve,
Every problem.

Along the way:
I may fall
A million and half times.
I may confuse my successes
For failures.
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August 22, 2010

2:10
In the Grand Scheme of Things....
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these lessons are here to teach you,To remind you...That you are made of flesh and bone.
As you fall,So shall you rise,Like a phoenix from the ashes.
As you learn to walk,And jump,So, one day will you fly.
So cry when you have to,And laugh when you need to,No experience is wasted,And a mistake is only there,To teach you...
So that when you fly,You'll be high up with the eagles,And all that hurts today,Will be washed away,When the sun,Chases the clouds away.Live on!
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1:28
Pittsburgh: Bike Day!
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Today was a good day: if I may say so myself. Albeit my obvious homesickness I made the most of everything and even added a 3-hour biking trip to the North Shore of Pittsburgh as one of my activities for the day.

I think its amazing how the bike routes are lined out: isolated from the highways and making it easy to ride with no fear of getting run over by the traffic on the road. :) That definitely made the ride all the more worth it.
There's so much to see in Pittsburgh and some times I am amazed at how much can be missed when one refuses to go out there and find something new to do. For one, I found this amazing mini park right next the the Carnegie Science Center. There were also little eateries right by the river front. I am sure I would not be eating at any of them any time soon, but they looked amazing regardless. Then they were ducks and swans, al Read Full Post

August 17, 2010

19:51
Bound to Freedom
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You could nevercover me with your lies,I've been awake since December,And my thoughts run longer than parallel lines.
Have been making parties from my tragediesAnd singing sweet Bohemian rhapsodiesFor my enemies.I know that my tomorrow is brighter,When I choose to make my burden lighter.
Gone are the days when all I did was run.Now is the time to returnTo where all the living isFar from where the fear is.
My home is a mental paradisein it are the memories of my Ras-Choc ice,And boy, are they nice!My apple cuties and apple piesMy orange and watermelon slice.
I am not bound to fear,No! Because now my vision is clearAs crystal.And I will continue to bestow,Happ Read Full Post

16:51
Death is Dead
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My souls turnsAt the thought of these new burns,These scars ingrained from the past,These thoughts that were never meant to last.
In despair,Memories linger of how long it took to repair,Old dogs never seemed to learn,Their vomit to dis-earn,From what's true and what's a lie.
Infallible are the truths of your existence,You make trails of red as you move along, taking with them existence.You make a mark of deception,On the fore heads of your company,Taking their comrady,Turning it into treachery.
But what you don't understandIs... we know where you stand,Minds are not all corrupted,And limbs not amputated...We are scared,And yet we walk on,Pursuing only what matters, Read Full Post

16:35
Fleeting...
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the way my mind can choose to scatter,feelings from the before and the after,how in my mind i still hear laughter,from memories of yesterday.
how we fly like birds to the south pole,and play with dandelions in the meadowswhich are our minds.
it's amazing how my mind creates,little pockets of joy from the pain,little gardens of roses after the rain,that seemed to be flooding my brain.
how the thought of you,does not bring me to tears,how i can safely say,i loved you once, Read Full Post

August 16, 2010

6:52
From InSide to YourSide
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It is often little to impossible to fully understand the gross and subtle impact that we have on other people's lives until we take a step back and look closely at the way we impact our own lives: without others.

Curve me into a smooth stone,Let the river of life flow over me,Continuing to smooth out my rough edges.
I have seen the lesser part of me,Have wined and diner her,Even given her trinkets: little gifts,We have danced together,Cried together,But we could no longer be together,She had to leave,I have to grow.
It was a little thing really,See, all along I didn't see,How grave she made everything be..How tragic the situation became,And then we were both overwhelmed In bags of useless drama..Ah... she was something else,She had to leave.
Curve me into a smooth stone,Letting the river of life continueTo flow over me.Smoothing out my "rough" edges,Creating new, unmarked passages. from » ‎ CocoAfrique

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Taking some time off to do some growing and reinventing.

Will be back soon.

Read on. Read Full Post

August 08, 2010

3:17
From fire to ash to nothin
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These are free verses, written by Amil Khassim. Hope you enjoy this as much as I did reading it.

Love's association with pain,
rain, cold unsettled nights and
transfugal words of wisdom is
established with a certain connection
to untold stories, secrets & the like.
seeing them towering like murderous applause
seeing them producing high-water evens.
even the odds of love are veiled,
disguised and uprooted. The means
of love are protracted, expanded
sweetened with flavors of when and
if and might and must. Roses
like weep and flow, and reprimand.

but, the pain is altogether
an announcement & proclamation
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August 07, 2010

23:56
Action-->Reaction vs. Action-->Proaction
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Chaos..The perfect time to growAnd yet the only time, not summoned by my consciousnessAt least: not willingly anyway.
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Setting everything ablaze,All my sexual ties,Emotional ties,Physical ties,Everything is literally on fireThis internalExternal decompositionDestruction,Total and complete chaosChaos every where.
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Thoughts are fleeting,Who was to blame.None, but my inner meWho is trying desperatelyTo get back to where"We" always wereBefore we created imaginary attachmentsTo worldly "treasures"That will gothat will transform and growthat do not really define we.
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Chaos,Deep inside the wall of fire,Burning away all my worldly desire...And I welcome the heatEven when it hurtsLike a cut through my own chestThrough my mental facultiesIt is the pain of lossWhich is the joy of gainAll in the sam Read Full Post

August 05, 2010

5:13
B-class Hero
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How many times,I have been fooled by these gold mines.These lies so preciouslyTied to my existence,Like tracks on a tree trunk.
She was the B-class hero,But now, she must trade her medal In for the big number zero.Not so much in defeat,But more so, in acceptance of her previous deceit!
Promises are for fools,Pain is not for the faint hearted!But then again, neither is life...So, in that sense,We are all already winners.
B-class hero,Trading in my medal For the big number zero.Not so much in defeat,But more so in acceptance of my previous deceit. Read Full Post

4:56
One Year Later
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And I can finally have my stylist makes rows in my locs.

It's been a minute, but I think they are coming along pretty well.

And I have pictures to prove it!

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August 03, 2010

5:50
Reflections from Monday
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So you say to me,
That I brought all this to myself.
And I stare at you in dis-belief,
Why would I bring all this pain and heart-ache to myself
Like I do not want peace of mind.
Everything that has happened in my life to this point is because of the choices that I have decided to make. Good or bad. It's about high time I stopped putting the blame on external factors, we all know the real problem starts from inside of me.

Accepting this idea is not without consequence to my mental state of mind, obviously. I mean, there was a time when I believed in fate and destiny... but right now, I am more aware that I have the power to shape that so-called "destiny." More power than I thought I had actually.

When something terrible happens to me, I shy away into two mind states. Read Full Post

August 02, 2010

6:05
Hello, Goodbye
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You stand there in the alley way,With your pink, almost rosy faceLife's been good to youAnd you have finally found your niche.
A few weeks ago,I did not know where this poem would go.From left to right my thoughts of youKeep a swinging.In despair for my fearsWere finally beginning to be realized.
In the alley way you standSo glad for the new connectionsYou have made with the earthAnd with new re-moulded companionships.
It's good to see you happy.It's good when everyone get's whatthey need.May be not what they thought they wantedBut at least what they needed.
So just as I see you in the alley way,So I see you disappearWith the sunset of my dreams yesterday...
You have changedAnd so have I.But not all change is bad...If it makes everyone glad!
I am just gladI was in it before the tornadoCreated new alignmentsAnd gave everyone new roles.
But the world keeps turning,The clock keeps tickingAnd I say hello to a new youAnd good bye to someone I thoughtI had Read Full Post

July 31, 2010

7:54
Inner Sun--shining: Good bye blue, Hello yellow fellow!
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Happiness is in the air
Happiness, even when it is so rare
Some times.

Been blessed to have you so near,And it seems like finally my inner ears can hear.
I will not be my own jailer,When there's a world of amazing opportunities out there.
Mind be not trapped,Heart.. open up again and let love in Once again.
You thought we'd forgotten,
But no.. you were our very begotten,
And now we come to take you with us.

Enjoy the ride,Let distance be given to you by the tide.Stay true to you,Nothing can harm youWhen you hold your own,State your course...Do the work!
Happiness is here again,And there's a lot of life to gain! Read Full Post

July 30, 2010

23:27
Zimbabwe~~ I love this track!
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Everyone already knows about it, but I have it on replay and decided my blog could use it right about now! I attached a little you tube video with it too!

Every man gotta right to decide his own destiny,
And in this judgement there is no partiality.
So arm in arms, with arms, we'll fight this little struggle,
'Cause that's the only way we can overcome our little trouble.

Brother, you're right, you're right,You're right, you're right, you're so right!We gon' fight (we gon' fight), we'll have to fight (we gon' fight),We gonna fight (we gon' fight), fight for our rights!
Natty Dread it in-a (Zimbabwe);
Set it up in (Zimbabwe);
Mash it up-a in-a Zimbabwe (Zimbabwe);
Africans a-liberate (Zimbabwe), yeah.

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3:15
Keep It Moving
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The wilderness way Moses took was pure need and desolation.
Remember how you cried when you were a child?
Joseph's path to the throne room of Egyptwhere he distributed grain to his brothersled through the pit his brothers left him in.
Don't look for new waysto flee across the chessboardListen to hear checkmatespoken directly to you.
Mice nibble. That's what they need to be doing. What do you need?How will you impress the one who gave you life?
If all you can do is crawl,start crawling.
You have a hundred cynical fantasiesabout God. Make them ninety-nine!
If you can't pray a real prayer, prayhypocritically, full of doubtand dry-mouthed.
God accepts counterfeitmoneyas though it were real!
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2:48
The Path of Blame
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A man was breaking up the soil, when another man came by,"Why are you ruining this land?"
"Don't be a fool! Nothing can grow until the ground is turned over and crumbled.
There can be no roses and an orchardwithout first this that looks devastating.
You must lance an ulcer to heal it.You must tear down parts of an old building to restore it and so it is with a sensual life thathas no spirit in it.
To change,a person must face the dragon of his appetiteswith another dragon, the life-energyof the soul."
When that's not strong,the world seems to be full of peoplewho have your own fears and wantings.
As one thinks the room is spinningwhen he's whirling around.
When your love contracts in anger,the atmosphere itself feels threatening
But when you're expansive, no matterwhat the weather, you're in an open,windy field with friends.
Many people travel to Syria and Iraqand meet only hypocrites.
Others go all the way to Indiaand see just mer Read Full Post

July 26, 2010

19:45
gone for a little while
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But, I'll be back! Read Full Post

July 23, 2010

19:16
Woah, is that an anthill in my living room??
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Peace and love...That's what I am looking for,What I thought I was looking for...Instead, I created havoc and mess everywhere.
There's been a lot of negativity in my life lately. I guess I could choose to blame it on the loss of a few things here and there... my pride, my trust, my faith in people, hope!
Uh, to lose hope I think is probably the worst of all these.

Some times, we go through something that seems like a never ending nightmare blocking us off from where we are and where we should be. Someone once told me to let bygones be bygones: well, he forgot to mention that some of these take a minute to heal.

There was a little pile of dirt in my living room that the wind blew in a few weeks ago. I saw it and kept walking past it. Then one day, Read Full Post

July 22, 2010

20:22
mind garbage
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Inside, nothing's the same,There's turmoil everywhere... we've been playing the blame-game.Inside: where all the secrets are,Where we are our weakest,Our strongest..Our loneliest,Our most loved,Most hated...Inside.. where all the betrayal lies.
In the mind,A myriad of possibilities...Possibly I will be alive after I write this forsaken poem,Possibly I will be evicted from my apartment by the end of this month,Possibly I will write that letter,Get more money,Finish my jobGet paid.
But the mind is stuck...Like there's a rope, tagging on to the "lucK"or the lack --there of!
See she knows what she must do,Yet she sits in the dark corner of her mind,trapped in this cagebuilt from thoughts and fears,This cage that only she will open.That only she can open...
Alas,Time is not waiting For the mind to begin awakening...No!The needles of time keep spinningAnd then these moments of nothingnessWill add to the miseryShe so carefully helped to create..
Is all Read Full Post

July 14, 2010

18:00
alas
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yes, i have moments,
when i lose my mind.
when i say things i should not say
because i am soaked in a sea of emotion.
no, that does not make me weak,
that does not make me fake
it makes me human
enough to say when my walls are falling in.
though sometimes,
silence is golden.

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13:46
Jay E.... woe
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the handling of a heart
is a very delicate art
coz it's paper thin.

one irrelevant thought
that started out as a spark
could be a poisonous dart
that leaves a permanent mark
that's ice cold in the day and burns in the dark
and makes you never want to see his face again.

tee hee what a place i'm in
lead me to the sta-t-ion
a one-way ticket, don't look back
one cold tear that froze and cracked
a whole lot of pain i'm holding back
Shaft said "fuck that, roll the sack"
I said, " if my skull was cracked
and blood run out to the cold-de-sac
that could not match me where i'm at
My memories flash me there and back
yep, there goes me, right there in black
Holding hands, not staring back
SheRead Full Post

July 13, 2010

21:47
Healing Hands: Citizen Cope
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I will never forget your healing hands my love,
I thought my heart had stopped,
I swore I'd given up!!
I will never forget your healing hands my love,
You gave me daylight, you gave me sunlight.
.... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
Cause the actions of a few
Have put our world in harms way,
And history has proven
That they killed our leaders dead.
And I don't know about your right or wrong,
I got a muse from the East to West.
All I know is if I never said it before,
I'm gonna say it with my last breath.

I will never forget your healing hands my love,
I thought my heart had stopped,
I swore I'd given up.
I will never forget your healing hands my love,
You gave me daylight,
Gave me sunlight!

This is is truly beautiful. I can't stop listening to it. It's not so remarkably profound, but there is something so appealing about his voice, and what he is trying to Read Full Post

20:54
At the end of it all, it was Me.
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When did I become this situation, or more so... when did I allow this situation to define me? How many times have I found myself in situations like these, where I allow some one or something to define me.

Today, I woke up with a pounding head ache a Read Full Post

18:13
Psalm 23: The Good Shepherd.
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You, Lord are my shepherd,
I will never be in need.
You let me rest in fields of green grass.
You lead me to streams
of peaceful water,
and you refresh my life.

You are true to your name,
and you lead me
along the right paths.
I may walk through valleys
as dark as death,
but I won't be afraid.
You are with me,
and your shepherd's rod
makes me feel safe.

You treat me to a feast,
while my enemies watch.
You honor me as your guest,
and you fill my cup until it overflows.

Your kindness and love
will always be with me
each day of my life,
and I will live for ever
in your house, LORD.And my thoughts run longer than parallel lines.
Have been making parties from my tragediesAnd singing sweet Bohemian rhapsodiesFor my enemies.I know that my tomorrow is brighter,When I choose to make my burden lighter.
Gone are the days when all I did was run.Now is the time to returnTo where all the living isFar from where the fear is.
My home is a mental paradisein it are the memories of my Ras-Choc ice,And boy, are they nice!My apple cuties and apple piesMy orange and watermelon slice.
I am not bound to fear,No! Because now my vision is clearAs crystal.And I will continue to bestow,Happiness to my loved ones,And love to my "hated" ones.
For I am alive,And though there may have bee Read Full Post

5:43
Give Birth Slowly -- Rumi
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A new moon teaches gradualness and deliberation and how one gives birth tooneself slowly.Patience with small details makes perfecta large work, like the universe.
What nine months of attention does for an embryoforty early mornings will do for yourgradually growing wholeness. Read Full Post

June 19, 2010

23:25
In the Grand Scheme of Things....
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These lessons are here to teach you,

To remind you...

That you are made of flesh and bone.

As you fall,

So shall you rise,

Like a phoenix from the ashes.

As you learn to walk,

And jump,

So, one day will you fly.

So cry when you have to,

And laugh when you need to,

No experience is wasted,

And a mistake is only there,

To teach you...

So that when you fly,

You'll be high up with the eagles,

And all that hurts today,

Will be washed away,

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June 14, 2010

17:57
Only the Strong Will Continue
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The more I listen to this new Nas and Damian album Distant Relatives, the more I fall in love with it! This morning,while walking to the bus to get to work, I could not decide what song to listen to.. so I did a shuffle through the album and found "The Strong Will Continue", a truly remarkable piece given my state of mind this morning.

We are I am constantly battling with my ego; in some things as simple as saying I am sorry, or accepting a truth that I was not ready for. But, as I listened to this song and continued to meditate on my reasons for being mad at petty things, I realized that it's only because my ego was bruised. I continue to look at my inner me and understand when irrationality outweighs what's real and what's important; but it is always helpful to have a song like this one to lift one up and keep you pressing on in spite the daily struggles in life.
Well, without any more delay, here is the song, I included Damian's verses only with Read Full Post

6:57
aNd...
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the struggle for sanity and balance continues. Read Full Post

4:00
Lost In Translation
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o n c e upon a time,there was a f e e l i n g .
the e n d. Read Full Post

June 11, 2010

6:31
Death is Dead
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My souls turns At the thought of these new burns,These scars ingrained from the past,These thoughts that were never meant to last.
In despair, Memories linger of how long it took to repair,Old dogs never seemed to learn,Their vomit to dis-earn,From what's true and what's a lie.
Infallible are the truths of your existence,You make trails of red as you move along, taking with them existence.You make a mark of deception,On the fore heads of your company,Taking their comrady,Turning it into treachery.
But what you don't understand Is... we know where you stand,Minds are not all corrupted,And limbs not amputated...We are scared,And yet we walk on,Pursuing only what matters,Revoking the lies,And making new; binding ties,With Read Full Post

June 09, 2010

17:07
Complexities in our Differences.
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Some times I wonder what makes people become friends. Is it about having similar interests? Similar backgrounds? Similar mind states at the time of the meeting? Is it about having similar personalities? Or about having similar goals in life? Or could it be about being utterly different to the point that the thought of your comrade makes you crawl within your own skin?

For so long, I always wondered whether I was being a good friend, a true friend. And till this day, I don't know if I can answer that question, so delicate and yet so close to my heart.

I find that many times, I am in a process of transformation... lost in the fragments of my being...and yet I am only in my twenties, I sh Read Full Post

5:36
Vanishing words
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On my way back from DC to Pittsburgh this evening, I chanced upon a wonderful podcast. ^_^ It is by none other than the guys from WNYC's Radiolab! I must have forgotten to mention this, but this is my absolute favorite podcast on the radio.
Now allow me to say a little more before I introduce this podcast.
Radiolab is basically one of the coolest, everything podcast you will get to listen to, dead serious. Everything from science, to music, history, research... all wrapped up in the perfect little air space and fused with amazing sound effects. This show makes me think, and get lost in the space of my mind every time I get the chance to listen to it! I h Read Full Post

June 08, 2010

19:32
We were in Baltimore and DC...
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.... and it was wonderful! Read Full Post

June 03, 2010

17:01
I like to believe...
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I like believe that I am wiser than my time, But that in itself may be a fallacy.
I like to believe that I can fly,And maybe with the way time goes,I will one day.
I like to run through the motions of my mind,And bask in the beauty of my being,In all the imperfections,In all the mindless discretions.
I like to believe that I am beautiful,From within,And that beauty... no one can take from meFor its not physical you see...It is internal,Ever growing,Ever learning,Ever remolding itself.
I like to believeThat one day... all worries will seize to matter,All cares will be swept away,With the morning breeze,And all that Read Full Post

May 29, 2010

6:22
Lol
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Ok, I am done being mad at the world!

Just sharing a funny epic fail video I found online today.

Have a good weekend, whoever's reading this. ^_^

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May 28, 2010

22:53
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Forced to face reality,Reality that keeps biting meWith every turn of the shoulder,With every word from the mouth,With every slam of the door.
Clouded!Everything is clouded,In fear.Afraid, To open my eyes and seeThe death all around me.
Once I was the wanted,Now I wantBut its too late now,Because words were spoken,Because promises were broken,Its over...And this mind needs to accept this nonsense.
Red tiles line to your door,There's a party inside.You were redeemed,Rescued from the evil witch...Now all the good lasses will waltz throughAnd sweep you off your feetBut the witch... will not have this brew.She knew it, The moment her destiny was revealed.
Aaah.Why she dances in the shadows,And drinks of her own poison Read Full Post

May 27, 2010

17:51
Of indecision...
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Then indecision brings its own delays,
And days are lost lamenting o'er days,
Are you in earnest? Seize this very minute;
What you can do, or dream you can, begin it;
Boldness has genius, power and magic in it
- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe Read Full Post

May 26, 2010

5:52
Aaaaahh
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My dad always used to say to me " you can always feel when some thing bad is about to happen. ..When you are meant to have a bad day, you smell it from the time you get up." Ah aha, when I look at those words (paraphrased for privacy reasons) they were kinda really pessimistic. Either way, every time he said them, I would laugh on the inside. It's not like I was agreeing with what he was saying, more just acknowledging the fact that bad things do happen. Laughing about them makes the lesson easier to learn.

Today, I learnt to my not so shocking dismay, that I have been grimy with my cash again. After not checking my account balance for two days, I open to find an almost 100dollar negative to my account. Now, its not like this has been my best day:(or like this is the first time this has happened, or like I did not expect this "surprise) I guess I just had the cheery added to my ice cream sundae. I still continue to believe though that it could be worse. My next p Read Full Post

1:23
Feels like ...
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Feels like the ship sailed away,
And now the land appears only as a tiny spec,
blending in with the horizon.
reflections of the sun's gaze

leave nothing unsaid,
and how the moon will soon brighten up the sky.
yet there still larks a feeling of nostalgia.
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1:19
Daddy read this...
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Daddy read this,
Says he needs to understand this."Why is my baby so down,Why does she wear her smile up-side down,Wearing a frownTo no where?"
Daddy read this last night,Spoke with worlds filled with fright,"My darling, come back into the light,Because the one who loves you, will always treat you right."
Daddy read this again and again,Trying to understand her soul .. in vain,Maybe by reading between these lines he'll gain,Some understanding of why she stress and strain,her precious brain.
Daddy keeps reading this today,And one day she will probably fly away,taking her his way...And then it will be like May;It w Read Full Post

May 25, 2010

23:52
Everyone's gotta learn some time.. :(
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walking on glass
never felt so terriblenever felt so unpredictable. Read Full Post

18:08
WTF!
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I don't like being made a toy or a social experiment for anyone, but it seems to me like the level instability in my life is causing me to do just that to myself and others around me. Heck, I am only 21; what do I know about life?!... Lately, it seems like everyday is a dream, like emotions are alive and dead at the same time. I could choose to blame this on the weather, the obvious changes taking place in my life, but really... I think I am just refusing to take responsibility for my actions.

Yes, I have defaulted. I thought I knew what I wanted but right now I do not know. Some times its better to simply live in the moment as it is and then leave the wind and time to carry it further and further away from me. Why do we let our minds take us captive, or should I say...why do I let my mind take me captive?
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May 21, 2010

18:34
Home Again
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She's talking to the sun again,Says she needs to go home again,Fly away with the bird's during their winter flightOut of this cold town.
She can't have her cake and eat it,Making patterns out of stones,Throwing pebbles out onto the sea,Looking deep into the formless horizon,For some path that will guide her home.
In memories her mind lingers,Time again... she shivers down to her timbers,Why cry?Why not try to flyHigher... Why not try to get lighterMentally,PhysicallyOtherwise.
She's talking to the sun again,Since there will be no midnight train,She'll just visit home...In her brain.

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May 20, 2010

3:15
random ... really, don't read this if your not ready for some nothingness.
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So, finally after a long four-five months, I finished my fourth semester in college. It's hard to believe this given how tough the year has been: but being here reminds me of how grateful I am to God: for life and for the mercy which he provides that has brought me this far.

I will be a junior in the fall if all goes well and according to plan. But you know how these things go, we can never be too sure. I can only hope and pray for the best.

As far as this summer goes, I don't have a concrete job yet, but I continue to search and I hopeful something is going to come up soon... God help um!

As for right now at this moment, I am going to chill out with a few of my favorite tv shows and listen to this new Nas and Damian Marley album - Distant Relatives! I think I may have found my new favorite song.. (laughs like a happy baby***).

Well, happy Wednesday everyone! I am out now. ^_^ Read Full Post

May 12, 2010

22:21
quietly waiting... for you to
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Please give me a cup of tea.
That's all I need really.
Everything else...
I don't care.
Thanksawesome.
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3:17
Too much mash
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Fresh tracks in the field,Old wounds...Opened..
I just need to find my muse,Because I only seem amusemyself with my actionsmy wordswho am I?
Earthquakes,Rumbling down the fields of my cranium,Flooded rivers,From the mountains of my thoughts.
Fresh tracks in the field,A car's packed in the dead center,On its tiresBlood stains...A dead rabbit... gone to its new warren,Maybe its in heaven,All that's left of it...Fragments on a car tire...
There's a bun in the oven,But I will not have the luxury of diningTonight...Because there are fresh tracks,In the field of my mind. Read Full Post

May 09, 2010

22:25
In the spirit of the day...
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Take me back to the day,That you pushed me out of thy belly..Or better still,When you realized you would have me as your daughter.
Were you afraid?A first child of three,Did you think you would not make it through?Were you filled with joy?Take me there...
To the first time I let out my virgin cry,Tiny as the beer bottle, I was..But you... you loved me still.
To the time I came home,With centipedes in my pockets,Or when I was so worried because the house was still locked when i got home..That I got onto my bike and rode 5 miles to find you,In a meeting with your boss.
Take me back to the time,You told me to jump into the shower,After I'd been a naughty girl.. refused to take a bath... refused to eat my lunch...Then from no where,I felt a Read Full Post

May 08, 2010

7:42
No title really... just mind detoxing
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But then, we were young,And we laughed at all our jokes,And we never let time take us as its fools.We had no limits,There were no boundaries,Only dreams to be realized,Only stories to be told, Only new journeys to be made.
Now we see through time's eye,That some times there's clouds in the sky,There's hail and snow,There's wind and cold,And sometimes, the new clothes get old.
But in WE I will never stop believing,Even when that's all time seems to be revealing,Because see, even in the storm,The eye was still on the sparrow,Even when love cast out a poisonous arrow.
You do what you do,And just do me...So plain as a pale piece of paper,And you.. so green like the printOn this so called paper.Who's to tell.Definitely not I.Only He knows the fate of this ..This pile of earthWhich is me.
Be strong even as we see time,Reveal the weight of what was really real.Because yesterday I laughed in glee,And pretended like everything was great yet really,I was not sure,Yo Read Full Post

6:06
Rafiki!
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Wow, watching the Lion King today took me back to the first time I watched it as a child. I remember sitting in a big open garden at the Fair well Hotel on a blanket with my sisters and my mother. There were other children with their mothers too. ^_^. We were all very excited to be out with other kids our age and with the stars so high up in the sky, it couldn't have been a more perfect day to watch it. I can't remember crying so much while watching a cartoon.

But even then as a child, Rafiki left a huge imprint on my mind. This "Silly/ Creepy Baboon" so filled with life, so alive and positive reminds me that what happened in the past, remains right there. We can choose to either run from it, or learn from it!
This is one of my favorite clips from the movie!
Enjoy!
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May 04, 2010

20:27
The Forsaken
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Last night's escapades had me running in circles through my brain.
After serious contemplation, I made the ridiculous move of calling my ex. Needless to say, the phone call was in vain. Now, I pound a can of beef on my head.
See, I wonder why we do this to our selves? The constant battle between what is right and what our heart thinks is right. See, in picking up my phone to call, I already knew the outcome, but still I did it.

I even tried to prepare something I would say to him if God forbid, he had the nerve to pick up the phone. Ha, maybe its better that he did not.
Today, I admit that last night's adventures were utter madness, needless to say. I have this silence to thank for it. Letting tiny demons crawl back into our l Read Full Post

May 02, 2010

2:46
Beauty in simplicity
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With the birds I sang,Today...As they sang songs of freedom with the rising of the sun,And then sipped from the waters of the lake when the midday heat arrived.
With the wind I flew,Today...Bellowing down the northern bike trail in the Schenely park.
With the clouds I cuddledToday...As we argued about whether it should rain or not...Needless to say, I wonThe clouds decided to save tears for another day.
With the green grass I laid,Today..As she sang her new song to me...Said she has a show on the 23rd,I said I'd attend.
In simplicity I found restToday...In simply being free,To spend some time with me...And oh boy, was it a day to remember! Read Full Post

May 01, 2010

1:15
A little techno-whining~
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So, tell me why when I opened my Pandora music this morning, a huge banner turned up asking me whether I would like to synchronize my face book and Pandora accounts! Now seriously, I know the world has gone utterly mad with this whole Internet frenzy/ social networking business.. but must all my information be shared with everyone?
Who gave Face book the right to give Pandora my information anyway? I need to see the CEO ASAP.

Just the other day, I had an insightful argument with one of my girls about the authenticity of mobile uploads on the book. At first it seems pretty simple; take a picture and then text it to my book's account... but see, the book does the upload for me after they store it in some secret location in web space; which means that there are pieces of me scattered all over the Internet waiting for someone to hack into them and send me useless adverts!!... and that's to say in the least.

Needless to say, I have come to the con Read Full Post

April 29, 2010

22:00
Goldenbrown
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golden brown were the shoes i wore today,
new walking shoes he brought my way...
this journey to nowhere, only brings me back to here and then nowhere again.
and as he gave me this gift,
he said, " little child this shall lift..
your spirit to a higher vibration."
ah, but how could a shoe,
so petty and held together by glue,
how could this shoe,
ever produce a vibration?
in time... their sole would wear out,
and i will want to throw it out.
in time, the gold will fade out,
and i will need a shoe 'tune up'.
but still, i took these golden brown shoes,
and looking at them now...
they only show the story of the journey.
the little fold at the top... the creases everywhere only speak
of the rain and mud through which they trod,
of the sand and sea that in which played.
these shoes produced a positive vibration...
their sole.. only gets harder.. never softer...
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April 28, 2010

18:46
Paper thin- Jay Electronica
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The handling of a heart is a very delicate art cause it's paper thin
One irrelevant thought, that started out as a spark, could be a poisonous dart, that leaves a permanent mark, that's ice cold in the day, and burns in the dark, and makes you never wanna see her face again
Tee-hee what a place I'm in
Lead me to the sta-ti-on
A one way ticket, don't look back
One cold tear that froze and cracked
A whole lot of pain I'm holding back
Shaft said "F that roll the sack"
I said If my skull was cracked
and blood ran out to the cul-de-sac
That could not match me where I'm at
My memories flash me there and back
Yup, there goes me right there in black
Holdin hands not starin back
She starts cryin i start denying that it's my fault and I'm aware of that
Man. in hindsight signs be glarin back
Where's the map to show you where ya at
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17:26
~~~~
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baby steps. some days its up up and away.other's its "why didn't the sunshine stay?"for now, I'll be on my way.to take this disappointment away. Read Full Post

April 26, 2010

1:29
fleeting
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the way my mind can choose to scatter,feelings from the before and the after,how in my mind i still hear laughter,from memories of yesterday.
how we fly like birds to the south pole,and play with dandelions in the meadowswhich are our minds.
it's amazing how my mind creates,little pockets of joy from the pain,little gardens of roses after the rain,that seemed to be flooding my brain.
how the thought of you,does not bring me to tears,how i can safely say,i loved you once,with all of my heart...and accept that we had to part...
how i understand that we experienced "WE" differently.maybe i was a replacement for hermaybe you truly loved me,..see, i don't know.and i will never know...but i know this one thing,it was really good while it lasted.
it is amazing how y Read Full Post

April 19, 2010

4:50
of love and other things
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rushing like the water down the River Nile,ever present from this obvious "awhile"phase got into.
mind gone to the desert,seeking an oasis,somewhere to create a new basis.minds once entwined,drifting, drenched... already wined and dined...
crushing like the water down the Bujjagali falls,no notes can be heard from these massive walls,shaken at their core,chasing and begging for more..."give me some soul, sister...give me some of your soul".
blazing like a fire through the savanna grassland,deep in a field of cactus... in our very own Karimoja,fears of a looming rain cloud,of falling rocks from the sky,of mindless talk from the trees, the birds, the wind, the fire...
crushing,rushing,blazing.... down the path of despair,looking for that old man who owned a shoe repair,ma Read Full Post

1:08
Gone Fishing
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Casting out nets into the sea,Hoping that they will not get choked,By all the debris at the bottom.
We step out onto the water,Hoping that it turns to glass,That some how we will not sink...That it's a sea of water... and not blue ink.
Hoping,And then diving into the deep end,Because this is living after all...Moving almost blindly through the turmoil.
Ah yes,We cast out nets into the sea...Let's see what she will bring back this time. Read Full Post

April 18, 2010

4:41
Spring cleaning
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Finally was able to get my blog to somewhat closer place that makes me comfy. I guess the re-construction only continues. But it also continues in our daily lives and I hope that everyone is building stronger bridges to get to where they need to be this year and this summer.Just a little update from me, not so much to write about yet... not too inspired... but with the weather getting better, new posts are right around the corner.Happy Spring cleaning...Peace and blessings. Read Full Post

April 12, 2010

5:14
take me back to August 2008... please...take ...
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take me back to August 2008... please...take me back to February 2009...to May 2009...take me back to when it was nice..to when all was sugar and spice...... a ha...it's all like a big bad dream,i am waiting to wake up from. Read Full Post

April 11, 2010

16:22
Out my mind--Erykah Badu
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I’m a recovering undercover over-lover
Recovering from a love I can’t get over…
Recovering undercover over-lover
And now my common law lover thinks he wants another
And I’d lie for you
I’d cry for you
pop for you
And break for you
And hate for you
And I’ll hate you too
If you want me too
Ah, Uuu Uu
I’d pray for you
I’d crochet for you
Make it from scratch for you
Leave out the latch for you
Go to the store for you
Do it some more for you
Do what you want me to
Yes I’m a fool for you
I’m a recovering undercover over-loverRecovering from a love I can’t get over…Recovering undercover over-loverAnd now my common law lover thinks he wants anotherAnd I’d lie for you...and cry for you...I’d pop for you...I’d break for you...And hate for youAnd I’ll hate you tooIf you want me tooI gotta do my love for youchopped and screwed for youPay the rent for yo Read Full Post

15:51
No title... just random talk.
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The ground was ploughed,And heavily drenched in water.Holes were dug,And filled with fresh seeds.
The seeds began to grow,And needed shelter from the sun, and the rain and the wind,And those damned raccoons.
But then the day came that they were strongEnough to face the light,The wind,The rodents...
And so, the planter set them free...Removed their shelter.Some died immediately,But others withered not.And as he kept on weeding,And pruning,And weeding some more...Hence his perfect garden was born...From an empty land...To a beautiful garden.
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2:17
Time
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Time passing by
Time flying by
Time making money
Time spending dime
Time in Read Full Post

April 10, 2010

8:00
In the sea and in the paddle.
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This life as a poet, I find,Gets me lost many a time; in my mind,Lost in memories left behind,In tales to which I can not press rewind.
But the tape keeps aplaying,"Move forward soldier!Make the next move bolder,Fail not under this pressure,Keep on pressing on soldier!"
And in the aftermath,After I have soaked in a warm bath,I realize what it was I was fussing about...The fear to press forward.
Those words clang like a hammer in my brain,Causing a migraine,Feels like a mind grenade...Either way, those words keep aclangin' in my brain.Insane in the membrane.
So I say to you poet out there,Reading this piece that's going no where,To press on soldier.Not like the answering machine on your voice-mail,But move with the wind,And hold tight to your paddle,Even when the ride causes a little warble.
Press on. Read Full Post

April 08, 2010

2:41
Shape of Water
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Moving like a river,Deep like the sea water,Morphing,Because really, I have no shape.
I pick the good,Leave the bad,Mimick..Some may call me a chameleon,Well, I say stay mellow...Always.
Moving in fluid motion,Like mercury through water,Like oil over glass,Morphing again,Because really... I have no form...I pick the good,Leave the coo coo...Like a fluid,Morphing with fluid motion.Read Full Post

April 06, 2010

21:39
Under This Big Oak Tree.
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In a mellow disposition,Because darkness will spill into my heart; have me filled with that poisonWill not be bitter,I know it's gonna get better.
Thought I was clever,But hey, I was wrong...Either way,This funk will not deter the purpose,For which I was made.
See I could choose today,To be bitter and carry pain from yesterday,But I know there is a better way,To a clear way...
And I will take in this sunshine,And let me soul shine.Had a little dark cloud over my head,But that was yesterday's rain.
Yesterday is history,So... I have written it into a little book of magical stories,Creating more and more hi stories,Till my house is twenty Read Full Post

April 05, 2010

18:51
... anything that comes from the soul ...
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... anything that comes from the soul is eternal... Read Full Post

April 04, 2010

22:45
the sea...is my home.i belong to the ...
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the sea...is my home.i belong to the seaand i will ride high with her tides,low when she takes me under...but time has revealedmy home is the sea. Read Full Post

18:47
brain freeze.
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brain freeze. Read Full Post

April 02, 2010

18:29
With my soul.
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I asked you to run to your quiet place,
Your hiding place,
And you hid from my face.
You changed the pace,
And then clicked "erase".

Erased your self and declared victory,
Created a new world,
Your very place of serenity.

I tried with all I knew how,
To love you with my soul,
Not with my hands,
with my soul...

But what is a girl to do,
When the one she love,
Just turned into a dove,
And flew away to the sky above.

You had to go,
And I had to let you go.
I fought for you,
To let you see,
Just how much you mean to me...
But somethings are more complicated than they appear.
Some times the heart is not an ear
To the soul...

For all its worth,
I do not hate you.
In any shape or form..
I just understand,
What you were trying to say,
For the longest time.
Maybe one day I'll start dreaming...
Maybe fate will not Read Full Post

5:55
So far... Happy April 1
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Well, here goes one of those diary-blogs... i will try and keep it on the sunny side though.

Wow, a lot has happened to me this year already.. and to think, its only April. Happy New Month everyone since we are on that topic. No one even tried to prank me this lovely April fool's day.. though I did a few pranks of my own.

Been doing a lot of soul searching within the last few weeks. Sometimes its gets tough when we truly holistically look at ourselves and see that "we" that we really are. Boy, did I get a magnifying glass stuck to my brain or what. Anyway, after very unnecessary thoughts, I decided to join a tai chi class down at a university close to my school. It's been great, obviously, as we can see from the little poem I posted a few days ago. It's strange though, how doing something so calming could reveal how truly restless the mind is. Needless to say, I will go on to do this because as my sifu says; " you need to find a way to gather your chi, calm yo Read Full Post

4:03
So, how about that new Window seat?!
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Basically, she got out the car,
and stripped down to her bare skin...
revealing who she really was...

then she said:
"they who play it safe are quick to assassinate what they do not understand. they move in packs, ingesting more and more fear with every act of hate on one another. they feel more comfortable in groups, less guilt to swallow. they are us. this is what we have become: afraid to respect the individual. a single person within a circumstance can move one to change. to love herself, to EVOLVE." Erykah Badu.

much respect for the new Window Seat by Ms. Badu. Read Full Post

April 01, 2010

2:15
In tai chi class
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And then there was silence...Hashhhh.All I hear is cars passing byBirds chirping,Children laughing,But my mind is quiet.Still.Clear...As I accept this transmutation to happenAs I let my soul awakenAs my spirit flows through timeErasing my painEverything is gain.Shh...My mind is finally silent.

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March 31, 2010

19:53
Ice and Glass.
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So there we wereplaying with scissors and knives,playing like blind men,treading on thin ice.
... the ice broke,then we woke, to the blood oozing everywhere,to the thoughts running to no where.
there we were,alone... nothing on our backs we wear,alone... rolling with the glass and fragmentsof pieces from yesterdaytodayeveryday.
there we were, playing with scissors with knives,playing like little children on thin ice...oh how it felt so nice.but the truth is...knives cut,ice breaksthen its not so nice,after all. Read Full Post

March 25, 2010

5:49
Heaven to Hell
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Why do I fight with words and syllables,Play with nails; that make tiny holesThrough my soul.
'Cause now I begin to realize,That we've been spinning real lies,And now, the truth has been revealed to our real eyes.
Cut me down from the bottom,Make me believe its winter and not autumn,Your eyes, the tell a story,Make me cry, make me feel sorry.
The mind bleeds,With thoughts uncontrollable,With lies, truths infallible,No meal is palatable,Because webs were span,And sad songs were sang,And beauty turned to ashes,All too quickly.
All too quickly my mind melts,In the pain from the heat it created,Dang, if love is so nice,Tell me why the hell I feel like a pack of trapped mice,Why can't I eat my plate of steamed rice,Why does the thought of it make my heart grow cold as ice.
This is how it feels to be alive,To be dead, and alive, all at once,To unload stress by the ounce,Trying to make sense of all the shit spilled over,Of all the liesThe truths...
It Read Full Post

March 17, 2010

6:50
Here on Earth
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this right here song, will make you wake up, literally. And it may seem weird to have a song rattle one's life so profoundly, but this song... is one of my all time favs!
And the sun has fallen, and the back beat’s telling truths

That you want to hear, and you want to hear again

And the closer that you get, with the force of all the weight

And it’s all so clear, do you want to feel aaah

Want to feel aaah, want to feel aaah

For as long as you are, here on this earth

I feel alive

For as long as you are , here on this earth

I feel alive

And you take your time, because we’ve got all bight

Saturday or nothing, we can do what we want

I’m a sucker for your game, it’s the way you tease

And its so unreal, when we touch the ceiling

For as long as you are, here on this earth,

I feel alive

For as long as you are , here on this earth,
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February 25, 2010

5:39
Soda machine
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The winds of change seem to blow everyday. Some times they are North-bound and other times they are South-bound. But, not all change is a bad thing.
You know how it feels after you discover this new flavor of fruit juice then you start to take it all the time. The more you drink from it, seems like the more you love it! But then, one morning, you wake up, and the juice tastes like ordinary juice... it has lost its flavor, its sense of uniqueness because you seem to have drank too much of it. Ah, how I hate it when that happens. But as I said earlier, not all change is a bad thing... because this gives me a chance to make a new fruit punch and go through the motions again, and again and again.. until I find my "niche"( for lack of a better word).
It seems like I have been drinki Read Full Post

February 22, 2010

4:31
Let the sunshine in!
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Today was a pretty dramatic day. I mean, I went from mopey at 6am in the morning, to happy at about 9am, to angry and confused by midday... to really angry by 2pm and then back to happy again at 6pm. ... and they said being a woman is not easy, how those words ring clear in my mind right now!
Either way, today came with a bag of surprises and some experiences that I wish to keep in my good memoir book. I learnt to be calm in all situations... and as profound as that may sound, I am not the master in the topic: quite the opposite if you ask me.
Today, I had to pick between irrationality and reason... and for the first time in a long time reason won. I did not do this alone and I am extremely grateful to the lovely best friend I have, who kept sane in this corrosive day. So, I guess, after my streak of sad awk Read Full Post

February 20, 2010

0:04
Where do I Begin... How Do I End?
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Where do you I begin,And where do you end?I have become time's prisoner,Trapped in doubts,In great expectations...In unfulfilled promises,In unanswered phone calls... ...
Where do we begin,Where do we end...With the war in our minds,With the greed that leads us to think we possess,That which we obviously do not!
When did it become an obligation,Or a restriction in the mobility of our minds,When did the door open,Or precisely... who opened that door,And bound us,And bound me...To this oh so big tree!
Freedom...That is really what we are after,Failure,That is the one thing I fear...And more so,failure to comprehend..Why minds stay locked,Not open to correction,To a challenge!
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January 17, 2010

6:23
...For Haiti...
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My heart bleeds,For you Haiti...The God that gave,Has taken away..
Something so precious,Something so priceless...Life!
I am only a poor man's daughter,My fears lie in whether I will be able to breathe tomorrow,Or may be finish school so I will not beg and borrow.
But tonight, my heart goes out to you...May the Lord plant resilience in your hearts,As we all stand together in prayer.
Even in the loss of words,I stand with you Haiti...For strength,I pray.
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January 15, 2010

4:54
Lessons From an Overstayed Visit.
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Wow... I do not even know where to begin with this. The last few months have seen me disintegrate right before my very eyes: swaying from emotion to emotion; governed only by the feelings in my heart rather than the logical and rational realities around me.
I think the time has finally come for me to admit that I fell in love... completely, utterly, helplessly, brainlessly in love; and I am sure most of you relate to this. Till this day I just never quite understood why I felt so helpless, like I was going to die a slow painful death because he left me... like I would never breathe again; but then again I guess that is love. It takes you over like a drug and then flows through your system: like a mild poison. It feels really good; don't get me wrong... but it always sucks when you have to finally let it go.
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January 14, 2010

6:44
Lost
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Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean am lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Just because I'm hurtin
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get
What I deserved
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I tried to cross
Every door I ever tried was locked
And I'm just waitin till the shine wears off

You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
Cause along may come a bigger one
And
You'll be lost
Every river you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Just waitin till the firin stops

With the same sword they knight you
They goin to good night you with
That's only half if they like you
That aint even the half they might do
Don't believe me ask Michael
See Martin see Malcolm
See Biggie See Pac
See success and it's outcome
See Jesus See Judas
See Ceasar See Brutus
See Success is li Read Full Post

January 13, 2010

7:49
Sisterhood.
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I just wanna take this time out,To say to all my girlfriends,My sisters....Thank you so much ladies...
For holding me up in my moments of complete weakness,For standing my altered personality,When I was about to lose my f***ing mind,Lost in the abyss of my emotion,And raging in a sea of confusion.
You held out your hands,And stood right beside me.Even when I was wrong,You still loved me...Ladies: I do not know where I would be without you.
To speak to me,To pray for me,To hold my hand,To stand, when my feet were too weakTo take the weight of my doubt!
Thank you,For not deserting me,For sticking with me...And for all that: I accept your loveI accept you... because only God could have sent youFor a one soul,Such as me.
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January 10, 2010

19:21
Sunday Morning
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Peace...She whispers... "peace".Stop fighting your spirit,Stop fighting,And let it go.
Let your mind,Run wild and free...Let your spirit flow over,With the love you know you possess,And let your heart sing,With fervour,And never ending courage.
Peace...Let the tears wash away your pain,Let love heal,The wounds of despair,That have plagued your soul...For far too long.Let it go..And embrace the power... Of peace. Read Full Post

January 05, 2010

19:55
:) Happy 2010!
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What is more selfish than refusing to give thanks? Well, that maybe some what of an ambiguous statement but my point here is to remind us all to give thanks.Sure life gets tough, no one said it was going to be easy; but it helps to be grateful and remember from how far we have come.
In a world filled with madness, busy schedules, responsibilities.. jobs and so much more, we sometimes tend to forget to breathe. I am no exception to that rule. But today has brought me to my knees and I have allowed myself to breathe and remember exactly where I am coming from and where I want to go.
Only a year ago I did not know where I would be today. Completely confused about school plans and pretty much everything else. Although I am still a little mixed up about a lot of things, today I can say it is only the grace of God that has brought me Read Full Post

January 04, 2010

11:52
Tick-Toc
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The clock is ticking,Ticking away; I hear clickingIn my mindless mindI walk as though I am blindThe clock is still ticking.
Dirty streetsRows of men walking on their bare feetTo a destiny only time can tell,To a destiny only time knows so well,And the clock keeps ticking.
Nights spent drifting,Drifting in an abyss of irrationality,Thoughts stealing from my very personality,Lost... what is my nationality?But the clock keeps ticking.
Holding a bucket of dreams in one hand,And a broken heart that I can barely stand...In the other.Love turned to hate,And now I must meet my fate...And the clock keeps ticking.
Was fast sleeping,From a dream or a nightmare; I woke weeping...Reality completely altered,Dreams and hopes completely shuttered.But the clock only keeps tickin Read Full Post

December 25, 2009

5:11
Loopin'
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A lot on my mind,
A lot... I definitely need to unwind.

For be it fear,
Or the fear of fear.
I need to buy me a beer.

We all flare,
Now and again- or so we dare.
And yet it seems like life will not spare
Us.
All it seems to do is glare.
Heck, I know I am done with the condescending stare.

Have said one to many,
A word..
And thought too many,
A thought.
And shed too many,
A tear.

But it is not how life should be..
Life is not all about me.
Maybe it is time to let go,
And focus on people... rather than me.

Life is tough,
Rough,
I will not add to its cruelty.
Enough... time to shut my mind off.
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0:42
This is a tough one.
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Emotions...
What are emotions? Why should I care for them anyway...

I give,
My whole.
When I love,
I love till it hurts... till it fucking hurts.

And all I get,
A slap in my face.
A door slam.
Every damn time!

So now, I wonder...
What are emotions?
Why do I feel love,
Pain,
Sorrow.
Why do I have emotions?
Because right now,
They seem to be the only thing,
I could do without.

When your friend,
Calls for your help
Don't you rush to help them?
Because they are your friend...

It hurts when the ones you called your friends,
Dessert you,
Let you down.
When all they do
Is take and take and take...
Leaving you dried out
Like a piece of marijuana,
Before it meets its fate!

Marley said " who the cap fit, let them wear it."
Let them wear it.
I do not know.
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December 03, 2009

6:40
Asa- The place to be
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This song is truly remarkable!
I hope you enjoy it as much as I did :)

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